hello there.. haha

wala lang. i have so much to do but i want to blog.. hehe first day of classes again tom. Gawd! cant believe its my last year in college. Honestly, im still in the mood to go back to highschool. haha really! :D

anyway, today was great. Had my game this morning VS lyceum again. We knocked them off the league and were on to the quarter finals! YEY! haha but i played very little and bad kase i was so puyat with the event eh coach didnt use me nalang. hehe i understand. Kris and Kat came to watch again. Kase meron sila sina-sightsee. haha Ewan ko ba sa dalawang un. Tapos ung sina-sightsee naman nila todo nag-feeling na. haha Pero tama naman ung feelings nya. haha After the game, the team had lunch kasama ko sila. Ang great. hehe we had lots of stories.. :) We also went to mcdonald's to get dessert them dropped them off. Ang happy ulit. So happy to be with them. :) Sana maging okay na lahat. :)

Got home, talked to tita again. FUN! Then, headed to g4 coz i needed to do major shopping for business attire clothes. Un na kase uniform namin. Suddenly a course requirement! BOO! I hated it! sobrang i wanted to shop for nice clothes but i was forced to buy formal ones. haha Pero okay, bahala na... Nothing i can do. Then while buying stockings. haha Got a message from my artista that she was there rin. Met up. Went around for awhile... Fun again.. Stories... Yela was so funny. i love her :0 Then we went to bead shop and saw these charm necklaces. haha tapos we three bought. No, actually lovi bought them. haha Kulit kase didnt want me to pay. thanks! Happiness for her kase un daw kailangan nya. Love for me kase un din daw ang kailangan ko and Luck for yela yun din daw kase kailangan nya. haha WIERDOES!!! haha We now call ourselves necklace buddies! parang bata lang. haha

So there.. got to go! have work pa...

Hello, ewan ko ba at gusto kong mag-post in tagalog. ay medyo taglish nalang. haha Minsan kase some things are better off expressed in tagalog and same with english. Eh, medyo marami akong emotions ngayon at kadramahan sa buhay. Kaya un. :) Unang-una wala akong tulog. Sobrang kapos kse kakatapos lang ng isa sa malalaking events ng group ko ung ASTA. We had our "get together" today. As in all athletes from different events gathered together to promote camaraderie and stuff. So yun.. ilan weeks namin pinaghandaan yan. Successful naman. Kung ako tatanungin mo it was a GOOD JOB for first timers. Ang galing talagang ng team-work namin. Impressed ako at walang masabi. Ang daming nanyari at hindi ko makwento lahat. Siguro ung pinaka important stuff nalang talaga. Start palang ng program, eh biglaang opening prayer ako dahil ako si pres. haay.. nahirapan talaga ako kase hindi ko alam sasabihin ko parang sa isip ko "hala what am i going to say? bka mapahiya lang ako. Maiimpress ko ba sila kase un ung position ko??" as in worry eh to think prayer lang un. so yun.. medyo kinain ko words ko chka natawa pa ako pero ayos naman. Tapos naman program na.. Ung part na un okay naman. Wala na ako gana magkwento. hehe
Isa naman sa kina-sama talaga ng loob ko eh ung mismong teammates ko. Ewan ko. ang laki lang talga ng inexpect ko sakanila na naging pasaway sila. Alis ng alis sa event. Ung mga bago pa sobrang late na nga dumating tapos nakaporma pa na ewan. Kainis. haha Napahiya nalng ako sa group ko. Walang masabi. Mahirap din sha para sakin kase alam ko nagsasaya sila at siguro ilang sa ibang tao pero sana kase nagparticipate lang man sila sa program. Mismong Men's Basketball nga ang active eh... *sighs* ka-lungkot talaga kaya minsan talga mas gusto ko sa ASTA eh. dun kase may respeto sila sakin. Hindi ako nababastos. Sana mawala na ito by tonight kase hindi ko naman masasabe to sakinla at ayaw ko sha dalin sa game bukas... ayaw ko na isipin. Mas marami akong dapat intindihin kesa dun.. :)

Sige, break muna magpapakasaya muna ako. Diba dati sbe ko may crush ako na cutie-pie??? haha Eh super bond kame the whole day. san ka pa?? haha Pero may girlfriend na eh.. haha syang pero okay lang... katuwa lang talaga sha kase captainball sha ng football team, galing pa maglaro tapos ang simple,simple nya. Wala arte sa buhay. Lahat ng kilos nya eh natural. Sa pagkaka-alam ko marami may gusto sakanya kse may itchura sha pero grabeh bilib ako sakanya. Walang yabang. Tapos ang responsible pa. sa event na to ang dame nyang tinulong... haha Hindi naman halata na may crush talaga sakanya noh?? haha pagbigyan nyo na ako. ganito lang ang kaligayanhan ko. hahaha hay nako gelli...

Bakit ba kase may drama sa buhay? Sobrang wala akong gana ngayon. Nakakainis kase. Kahit na dapat masaya ako kahit papano kase ang ganda ng event chka nag-bond pa kame ni crush! haha basta. Laki kase ng effect ng team ko sakin. Kase kahit ganun sila important parin sakin un mga un. Shempre kase i share my passion with them and simply because they are my teammates. haay buhay.. parang gulay.. hahaha

Tapos i should also be proud of myself today kase bago namin matapos nag short speech pa ako biglaan nanaman tapos lahat sila nagandahan sa sinabi ko. Kahit maikli sha at imformal nag-clap sila ng malakas for me tapos impressed pa. Nakita ko nga sa faces nila eh. Katuwa. Grabeh... Ung clap pa na parang ang great kong tao.. haha Yun kse talga un na feel ko. Promise. Ngayon ko nga na-absorb eh.. hehe

Pero ganun parin i still feel bad... sana mawala na talaga ito... kaya ko naman eh. Lalo na ngayon na nalabas ko na sha kahit dito lang.

Reminder lang sa kung sino lang babasa nito. Sorry talaga na puro drama ito. Wala ngang sense itong post na ito eh. I just needed to let it all out. Im not in the mood to express verbally at this moment so i am putting it out here.. You dont have to care. hehe Ang dame lang dumadaan sa utak ko ngayon.. hahaha next time, hopefully happy post na ulit. :)

Here are some pics nalang from kanina :0


The not complete ASTA group. :)

In the middle of the program

With the "G" Rapper! nag-rap kase sha kanina and ang great nya. Gusto ko na sha ngayon. hehe Dati kase ayaw ko dyan. galing talaga his talent. funny pa nung sinabi nya.. Nice pose ako ha?? hahaha

Hello :) Hello :) FINALLY! time to do stuff! hehe usually kase when i get the chance to go on the internet i just log-in through the usual and read through blogs that's it. Hindi na ako nakaka-post sa multiply or even here.

Anyway,,, recap!recap! haha

OKAY! I'M OFFFICIALLY 19! YOU GET IT?? NINETEEN! UHG! IT'S SO HARD TO ACCEPT. OH WELL! I JUST SHOULD MAKE THE MOST OF MY LAST TEEN YEAR.. :( I DON'T WANNA GET ANY OLDER... THIS IS FIIINNNEEE! LOL :D

My celebration was soo awesome because I finally got to do what i have been dying to do eversince. Finally got the chance.. hehe The kids were so great and my friends were as great as them. They surely made my birthday one of the supperrr bestest! haha I'll just make kwento more in my multiply since that's where all the photos are... they're too many.. haha Nga lang we werent complete.. I expected more people to come but i dont really know why they didnt show up.. Only part where i felt kinda bad..

MY FRIENDS ARE THE COOLEST..... :D

SO LOVED THAT DAY.... :D

Okay, next is my zambales trip with the team.. Well it was alright.. nothing great. haha We needed those 5 days of no training because were now back to the serious stuff.. hehe I didnt really have much fun because the moment we met up I already saw this one person who fights me.. hehe and my mood suddenly changed. Infact, i was supposed to have gone home earlier only if the house was not ours.. I guess I just had a hangover from my party. I had so much fun then and i just wanted to be with the people i wanted to be with and not my team.. ahaha I know it's kinda mean but the person who fights me is meaner... haha is there such thing???

thursday...thursday... MAY 17...

IT'S THE LOVE BABY'S BIRTHDAY!!!!
SHE TURNS 5!!!!
but acts like a 20 year old girl.. haha

I love you okay??? LOL

Next day, which was friday, accompanied lovidovi to inquire about her college school. The school is A OKAY! super awesome pero pang artista talaga. haha Afterwhich, headed to rockwell. haha and aga namin.. everything was still closed naglalakad na kame dun. haha So nag-withdraw lang kme then decided to eat breakfast outside nalang at pancake house. This was the start of our crazyness!!! ay hindi pala sa school palang eh.. ewan! basta... haha Back to rockwell because we wanted to go to zara! OMG!!! we loved everything! haha mashado kaming maraming gusto wala kaming binili. haha WE WERE CRAZY!! as in baliw.. kung ano-ano pinagtatawanan namin... and all the stories.. my golly! i missed her like twisters! went around somemore.. dame bloopers! We basically bonded like before and i love every single bit of it! We also went to bonifacio high street to get her someone a gift... my golly ang dami naming dina-anan just for that pero worth it naman. I've gotta say that was one of the greatest things that has happened to my life now... That day super made me happy! I had a game in the afternoon and i think i played one of my best kase ang happy ko talaga.. haha


Maganda ung unang picture tapos pumapangit na ng pumapanigt ang mga mukha.. haha Obvious ba na pinawisan kame ng todo?? haha Kase the heat that day was ssooo like eating us both to the core but it still it was hella fun! :D

Saturday... had training.. one day of preparation for the big game the next day.. haha ang saya ng training.. :D Then family dinner at friday's. We treated it as if it were our delayed birthday dinner. haha

Sunday morning... Lunch for big BOBBIE's birthday... It was like christmas for her.. opening all her gifts.. Great lunch with great people. MY FAMILY! haha

:D

Tapos afternoon naman... The big game against LYCEUM!!!! WE BEAT THEM!! haha GREAT! kahit wala kame training for 5 days... It just feels so great to win over them. Sila kase ang pinaka gusto namin i-beat lage.. school rivalry.. just understand.. haha The vetuses came over to watch and it was the best... Napasaya ko sila and they made me happier... as in! Thank you so much guys! :) We'll make it through dont worry! Tulong-tulong sa lahat... :D i love you girls soo much.. :D

whew! okay.. that was long.. :) i shall move on to my multiply now :)

ADIOS!

leaving for zambales at 5 am.. outing with the team. im no longer in the mood to really go but nevertheless i'll just go have some fun... at least try too. :) be back by thurs... i have lots to tell. birthday was a blast.. :)

wanna see my confidants... a.k.a ryan and lovi.. miss them na!

It's only 10am and my day has been at its worst. Get this get any worse??
I dont even how to express myself at this point and there's much anger in me..
For almost 3 years now, I have protected my image in my school and in just one snap this one desperate girl destroys it all. ARGH!!! Capal niya talaga. I honestly hate her right now!! I wanna scream! SHOUT! but most of all i want to cry coz I dont think I really deserve this... :( I know this issue is really shallow but kse im really OC with regards to reputation. Not that i feel like im all that perfect but I try so hard so people wont think bad of me then this girl, this one super effin irritating girl destroys it!!! argh!

But you guys, since 8 am when i found out what she had done I just kept quiet. Thought a lot and hey, what else can I do? What's done is done. I shall pray for her soul now. Hope she changes... All this anger in me naman stays only up to here. Later, when i see her again, what? of course I just have to be the one to understand like what i've been doing eversince. I dont know. I know this is not me. I hate being angry with anyone. I dont like being plastic and all but she really pushed it too much now. It's too much............. I just really want to cry... :( God, what did I do??? why is she doing this to me??? help me...

OMG! All I was thinking of today was I wish everything that happened was all a dream. It can't be true. I thought it'd be over by now but God really tests all of us. I hope everything goes well. I pray that nothing bad shall happen. God be with us and make us all strong :]

O my golly! What is this?? What's wrong with me?? Am i being too selfish?? ugh, hating it! hating myself for being like this... Sometimes I am like this, i simply can't control my actions (not in a really bad way) but for me sometimes, it just crosses the line and i hate when i do offend people. I seriously cannot handle it. I want to take back what i said but its just too late. Shucks, i dont even know why I'm being this way right now. Im surprised that i am letting this out here. ugh, self-pity mode... what's up ga??? haha

*refuses to speak more about that topic*

Lemme just go to my tagaytay experience, since i have mentioned that i had stories to tell.
Here goes, the trip was actually all about leadership training,team building and lasallian formation all squized in 5 days. Held at Angel's Hill's, Tagaytay. Very, very nice place. :D There were 5 girls and 10 boys and i must admit, I was in shock most of the time. Im so not used to being involved with too much boys. Plus, the activities planned were all so touchy and stuff. Well because they were all games and our goal was to make the impossible possible so we had to make use of all means just to finish one activity. TEAMWORK! was needed the whole time. oh yah, Dont get the touchy part wrong, ako lang talaga ang paranoid ng todo kse nga hindi talaga ako sanay but then for the rest it was all normal so un. Alam ko rin naman super OA na eh. LOL
We were composed of team captain's for all events. Even chess was there and he was super kawawa.haha What i loved most about the trip was knowing that even if it was all our first time to be together and i thought that we would not even talk that much eh, first day palang with all the activities we were working as a team na. You get me? Ang galing talaga coz, we all shared same goals and lahat kame determined talaga to win. Sarap ng feeling. We were a well-oiled machine & nothing could stop us. Tapos pare-parehas kame ng problems sa team and we all helped each other be a better leader. It was so tremendous. Another thing i also love is, hindi naman sa pagmamayabang but then they really respected me actually we all respect each other well. Ang great kase I havent felt that for a long time. My four days meant the whole world to me because i was able to bring myself back. Ang tagal ko na kaseng down and with all the issues i have to deal with giving up the position was one major option. Now, i know how the leaders work. Ang hirap nga talaga but it challenges you big time and you definitely learn a lot. Helps you become a better person. You learn so many things like, "sometimes you have to do what is right even if you dont want to" I also got to know myself in a deeper aspect. Whew! haha pero totoo talaga un. Now i have a clearer view of why there is a need to live.
It would be super long na if i tell everything that's in my head. Just as long as you know im happy and i had a great experience, that's good enough for me. I have this one little secret im dying to share with you but i still have to think about it well. Baka mamaya mapahamak pa ako. Mahirap na.hehe Ang dame ko rin naging ka-close. Basta ang great! period.

Now, the super kairita part it. I had so much pics and i wanted to share them here kaso nga lang my sister lost the memory card the next day. Andun na ung memory card sa hidden valley nagtatago din. haha So, i am left with nothing. Gonna copy pa from the others members eh bka matagalan pa.

Oh yeah we came up with a group name already which is,
Association of Student-Athletes or
ASTA. hehe we just love it. LOL

You know kahit na sandali palang kame magkasama it feels different with them na. I love being with them :)

I pray to God that he help us with all our big events this year and that he be with me always coz kailangan ko sha coz i make all the descisions which is the hardest of all. *hinga*

PS: may bago ako crush at ang cutie-pie nya. hahahaha

 

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