O my golly! What is this?? What's wrong with me?? Am i being too selfish?? ugh, hating it! hating myself for being like this... Sometimes I am like this, i simply can't control my actions (not in a really bad way) but for me sometimes, it just crosses the line and i hate when i do offend people. I seriously cannot handle it. I want to take back what i said but its just too late. Shucks, i dont even know why I'm being this way right now. Im surprised that i am letting this out here. ugh, self-pity mode... what's up ga??? haha
*refuses to speak more about that topic*
Lemme just go to my tagaytay experience, since i have mentioned that i had stories to tell.
Here goes, the trip was actually all about leadership training,team building and lasallian formation all squized in 5 days. Held at Angel's Hill's, Tagaytay. Very, very nice place. :D There were 5 girls and 10 boys and i must admit, I was in shock most of the time. Im so not used to being involved with too much boys. Plus, the activities planned were all so touchy and stuff. Well because they were all games and our goal was to make the impossible possible so we had to make use of all means just to finish one activity. TEAMWORK! was needed the whole time. oh yah, Dont get the touchy part wrong, ako lang talaga ang paranoid ng todo kse nga hindi talaga ako sanay but then for the rest it was all normal so un. Alam ko rin naman super OA na eh. LOL
We were composed of team captain's for all events. Even chess was there and he was super kawawa.haha What i loved most about the trip was knowing that even if it was all our first time to be together and i thought that we would not even talk that much eh, first day palang with all the activities we were working as a team na. You get me? Ang galing talaga coz, we all shared same goals and lahat kame determined talaga to win. Sarap ng feeling. We were a well-oiled machine & nothing could stop us. Tapos pare-parehas kame ng problems sa team and we all helped each other be a better leader. It was so tremendous. Another thing i also love is, hindi naman sa pagmamayabang but then they really respected me actually we all respect each other well. Ang great kase I havent felt that for a long time. My four days meant the whole world to me because i was able to bring myself back. Ang tagal ko na kaseng down and with all the issues i have to deal with giving up the position was one major option. Now, i know how the leaders work. Ang hirap nga talaga but it challenges you big time and you definitely learn a lot. Helps you become a better person. You learn so many things like, "sometimes you have to do what is right even if you dont want to" I also got to know myself in a deeper aspect. Whew! haha pero totoo talaga un. Now i have a clearer view of why there is a need to live.
It would be super long na if i tell everything that's in my head. Just as long as you know im happy and i had a great experience, that's good enough for me. I have this one little secret im dying to share with you but i still have to think about it well. Baka mamaya mapahamak pa ako. Mahirap na.hehe Ang dame ko rin naging ka-close. Basta ang great! period.
Now, the super kairita part it. I had so much pics and i wanted to share them here kaso nga lang my sister lost the memory card the next day. Andun na ung memory card sa hidden valley nagtatago din. haha So, i am left with nothing. Gonna copy pa from the others members eh bka matagalan pa.
Oh yeah we came up with a group name already which is,
Association of Student-Athletes or
ASTA. hehe we just love it. LOL
You know kahit na sandali palang kame magkasama it feels different with them na. I love being with them :)
I pray to God that he help us with all our big events this year and that he be with me always coz kailangan ko sha coz i make all the descisions which is the hardest of all. *hinga*
PS: may bago ako crush at ang cutie-pie nya. hahahaha
