One day I will live my dream.
I wont stop believing for if you continue to do that it can really happen.
This is just a chapter in my life which I have no other option but to accept once again.
I do not blame God for all this.
In fact, I thank him for this experience for it has truly made me stronger.
Im so lost. I dont know where to go. Straight or backward?
Im dying to go to a far place and be one with myself.
I need to think.
I want to think alone. Not asking anyone for any advice.
I want to be able to do things on my own now.
It's about time that I do things on my own. I want to learn how to fend for myself.
I know I can do it.
I know i'll make it through.
Just as long as God is with me. He's all I need. :)
this day just isn't right. i really dont like it... i wanna leave! for real!
im eating cow label(beef strips soaked in very rich sweet sauce) HIGHBLOOD talaga pare!!! haha ano un??? nag-decide narin ako na un title ko. hihi Hindi ko talaga matiis. Im soo addicted to it. I dream of it all the time.. hehe Pero when this pack is ubos na i really have to stop. Too much of it is bad! :}
Okay, then again i've been so busy! what else is new?? haha but hopefully after this week i should have more time. All my time was dedicated to the event we were organizing which was the ATHLETE'S NIGHT! My golly! We were so glad it turned out well. Really. Amazing is the right term to use. hehe
Amazing because:
1. Seeing all athletes in semi-formal wear was so pleasing to the eyes. Girls wore cocktail dresses and boys longsleeves with ties. It was something really nice coz usually when you see us were always sweaty and dirty and all that. haha
2. Our program did not flop! ahaha that was our main problem eh... great!
3. Athlete's enjoyed also. After dinner they danced the night away. We were also scared that they might find the event boring but they didn't. Or maybe some. Those who were KJ's. hehe
and plus! All my teammates wore dresses!! hahaha Lahat talaga as in lahat! no exeptions! even my coach. So we were the talk of the town. hahaha We looked so great.
Oh, one sad part was the whole night what was on my mind was i wish my supers were with me to witness the event and we would also all look pretty and glamorous. hehehe I just miss them :(
So there, i dont have pics yet because i still need to get it from the photographer. Will post when i get it. :)
Hhhmm what else??
training is becoming harder and harder. The season's coming up in one month and 2 weeks. That's just too near and i feel like im not yet prepared. So many expectations. I would really want to prove myself to them. I hope I do. :)
GAWD! For the past two weeks i have been eating to the max! It's giving me the freaks na! aha But seriously, there are those days when "I JUST DONT CARE I WANT TO EAT WHATEVER!" I cant even believe i even said that. I just thought that hey, eating feels great. hehe But its really scaring me na! THE SWEETS! IT'S JUST TO GOOD TO RESIST! haha
And last sunday, i was at the que's residence(mia and ryan's wonderful home) and they had this unfamiliar drinks which they just made me try and try and i was drinking them all. MY GULAY! it's only sinking in now. Even if they said that it's healthy and fat free but the deal is i can only drink water and my energy drinks! hahaha I seriously have to stop now. I dont want to get used to it. LOL
i know im happy because i choose to be.
Gotta be stronger GA! there are a lot of things in life which will be very hard to accept but you just gotta to do it...
This is what i always tell myself lately.. LIVE, LAUGH AND LOVE... it helps me get through... :D
golly bananas! hello super hard ng training kanina! grabeh... my gulay! wala lang.. pero im glad we still survived. :D
off to batangas in like 5 hours with the family and my tito. Im excited.. off from training.. relaxation.. hehe
Yet another monday. :D
Started great but as it is now its becoming sucky because of me! I keep on thinking of so many things. I have to cut down on my thinking. NO! of course i cant do that. NEVER!
Sige kwento nalang ako. Training in the morning. I was actually feeling a little sick. My throat was aching and i was no longer in the mood to play because i was feeling weak na. Then, towards the end I was put back in to play kahit na lanta na ako. I saw my mom already by the entrance with boobie coz they picked me up tapos shempre my teamates all went to boobie then all of a sudden mom points to the side and guess what?? my tito was there! from the US! haha Nagulat talaga ako coz we were expecting him aug. pa. Well my tita lied to me for the first time.. haha I was surprised at medyo nawala ung sakit ko. haha So, there, there training ended. So many kwentos and pasalubong's. haha Wait! di ko talaga mapigilan ha? Bobbie kase got an MP4 eh. Can you believe at 5 years old meron na sha mp4. haha Kainis! so yun basta my morning was fun!
Then to school, meeting para sa athlete's night na super hirap ang aming gagawin pero kaya un! Binay was stressful as always but fun!
So, now i'm home. daming inisip. I feel lonely. hehe Ito nanaman. i just miss my tita so badly... :( I want to hug her now. She got me so many things pero kahit wala un basta andito sha mas gusto ko un. She cant leave kase her work easily eh... I am at this point more convinced to be with her because there are so many things going here. But no! i will never run away from problems instead i'll solve them before i leave. :P
hello there.. ewan ko i feel very strange now... hindi ko maintindihan sarili ko... hehe
Leaving in a while need to do some erands.. I think were going to greenhills..
Okay, very little time left. Bunny's leaving in 30 days... great! who's next?? haha but we'll make it. I know... :)
haay buhay! i wanna be with my tita na...
